Being "healthy" is weird.

I've been trying to be healthy.

Luke and I did Insanity over Jterm. I've been drinking more water. I try--sometimes successfully, sometimes not so successfully--to eat a little bit better than I normally might. Today I went to the dentist, and then to the orthodontist, and then back to the dentist. Tomorrow I'm getting my yearly physical. I'm doing what I'm supposed to be doing.

Here's the thing: I don't like the dentist. When I was seven years old, my dentist hit a nerve in one of my twelve year molars. I had to get it removed by a pediatric specialist and then wore a space saver until my new tooth was able to grow in years later.

I have an extremely tiny mouth. Whenever I need x-rays I gag. Getting my braces adjusted resulted in eating soup for at least a week. Getting my wisdom teeth out was a mess. Me and mouth things just don't do well.

I also don't particularly like the doctor. When I was in high school I had chronic sinus infections. As soon as I was off my scheduled four weeks of amoxicillin I'd be back waiting in the office for them to do the test that affirmed I just needed to start another dose.

I don't have good experiences with the doctor and the dentist, but it's something you do to stay "healthy".

I feel like I'm going to die during the insanity warm up, but to be healthy you've got to exercise.

I'd rather have fried chicken or an entire loaf of bread for dinner any day than a salad, but I try to have some sort of balance. I try to drink more water than I do Diet Coke.

All these things alone don't change much, but all together they're supposed to. They're supposed to make me healthy. I don't know if I am healthy, but I know I'm trying to be.

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